Filters

Suddenly my filters are not working anymore and I see reality as it is. Unfortunately it opened up in front of my eyes the ugliness, the dirtiness, the corruption, the bad smell of Humanity and it is hurting like HELL!
Definitely a huge change occurred and I am was gotten by surprise.
Only yesterday while I was driving alone I realized my filters were gone! It is like being naked and no sunglasses on North Pole. God, it hurts.
A life time building layers and more layers to avoid the ugliness of life on this (lovely) Planet had disappeared out of nothing. I am still working on theories about the event. And I cannot see a chance to return to the old standards as I have new ones.
Before, I was able to pass through life and keep a certain happiness of being myself despite the horrible neighborhood. Today, their unhappiness, shallowness, ignorance are hitting me hardly.
It is not a feeling of superiority or not belonging to the moment or place, it is just hurting to see it so transparently.
Like the new series Grimm, I see their inside, they cannot hide the dark side anymore from me.
Actually it has being always like that, before I could deny the signs, now, it is impossible.

An avalanche of emotions are taking over me. I cannot deny it anymore.