I was used to deal with Water and Fire forces.
On 2010 something incredible happened: I reached all levels of professional satisfaction! And after getting there, where to go? Fulfilling your dreams and mission is arriving at the "FINISH" line.
After miles and miles of running, passing the end line, what does the athlete do?
He rests, nurtures his tired body, treats the micro injuries from the test, and starts practicing again, right?
That's how I feel, I've finished a test! Now, I need to recover and review training for a next test.
The feeling of having burned all energy comes with the "crossing" the final line. And as a Fenix, I wait on the ashes to re-born with new feathers and fly for my new life!
The odd feeling here is that ashes are stable, cold and static form of energy. Compared with Fire and Water - savage flows, ashes made me slow down in a way I am suffering to adapt. High energy took long time to control and live with in harmony, without bursts of anger or depression of deep thought. Now, facing the slow Ash Energy is making me feel useless and stagnate.
The feeling of almost be re-borne is at minimum uncommon. Used to fight always, now I have to retreat my troops and recover! But I DON'T KNOW HOW TO REST.
So, this lack of knowledge of recovering is irritating me a lot! Indeed it is the lesson of 2011, be quiet and wait.
And so I am doing...
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